un
earthed.
that
VIEW
was
never
mine.
+
i miss
every
VERSION
of me.
GROUND
me
in
the womb
of
for
EVER
more.
.
no thought
is
permanent.
nor
does
it
need to be
REPEATED.
(like
all matter)
to identify
with matter
is
an
INSECURE
attachment.
.
to expect
PEOPLE
to be
what they
ARE NOT
is
the trap
of
dis
ap
pointment.
you have
NO IDEA
how many
con
VERS
ations
i had
with you
in
my head.
.
drowning
in no
thing
where
i AM
no one
+
no one
can
reach me.
listening
to
consciousness
i heard
BS energy
may BE
returned
to
SENDER.
a disrespected
BOUNDARY
might
get back at you
+
TRANSFORM
itself into a wall.
.
to grief
possibility.
rejection
does not
get
EASIER
just
familiar.
is my
per
CEPTION
of things
in
accurate.
+ i have
outlived
another
ILLUSION.
.
refined
sensing
enriches
experience.
the highly
re
ACTIVE
body
absorbing
a
wide range
of infor
MOTION
asks
for
DENSE
processing.
.
GIVE ME
a
break
at the
break
ing
point
of
break
ing
down. through. free.
the
beliefs
you
HOLD
about
your
self
MIGHT BE
un
TRUE.
every
ONE
MAY
think
+feel
what
ever
they
want.
.
idk how to
HEAL
the wound
of dis
connection
to self.
as
the outside
world
is
more+more
connected
connection
to
the INSIDE
world
is lost
in the CASUALTY
of
a single
scrolling motion.
the pain
of
a broken heart
from
NOT HEARING
the self
hits
home
once
acknowledged.
constant
streams
of information
HAVE
never
helped
any
one.
ARE YOU
with me.
.
full videoperformance: https://vimeo.com/ondemand/projectephemeris2023/829819432
my
boundaries
screaming
in burning
red
did
not KNOW
how
to
CONTAIN me.
this soul
is divine.
learning
un
learning
re
learning
to
balance
on
the
FINE
LINE
be
tween
wholehearted
+ boundaried.
if you re
VIBING
+
you know
it
PROTECT
your
ENERGY.
.
to
approach
the
moment
with
no
AGENCY
over
its
UN
FOLDING.
to
let
go
of trying
to control
its
out
COME.
out
we
COME
in
any case.
.
please
STOP
sending
me
emails.
i want
to empty
my mind
not
my
mailbox.
i want
to read
BOOKS
not
ANYones
comment
on
my body.
no piece
of me
can be
possessed.
this body
is
ALREADY
taken
by
conscious
ness.
+ i let
all
the toxicity
flow
out of me
cause
it is
NOT MINE
to host.
.
did
you
believe
the
lies
you were
TELLING
me
down
by
the RIVER
in 2020.
i
OUTGREW
you
philosophic
ally.
you
OUTGREW
me
materialistic
ally.
end of story.
NO
story.
except
for
i KEPT
writing
MANY.
.
stillness
reveals
CLARITY.
we have
the choice
to
remove
our
SELVES
from
emotion
ally
draining
situations.
we have
the choice
to BE
come
conscious.
.
strange.
e
stranged.
drawn to
strangers.
RELEASE
me
into
the forest
of
never
have i
EVER.
free
FALLING
from
grace.
what
re
sides
WITH
in
re
sides
WITH
out
+
intention
is
meaning
LESS
if
you dont
mean it.
how
dare you
BE
so mean.
.
dont tell
my
GRAND
mother
to suppress
her
EMOTIONS.
she has
every right
to them.
MIND.BODY.SPIRIT
are
intrinsically
interlinked
consistently
informing
each other.
that which
is
suppressed
will block
the FLOW
of energy
within
the bodyself
+ eventually
cause
UNease.
DISease.
but
GO ON.
lead your
rational
life
full of plastic
inhibiting
any
emotional
expression
ANYWAYS.
.
no
PLAT
form
for
PRO
jec
tion.
NOT
even
a
form.
.
even
JUST
the
SIGHT of you
makes
me
feel
like
twenty TWO.
+ it took you
the
flash
of
a
smile
to BE
come
THAT
ONE
cheesy song
on my
current
playlist.
.
WE ARE
to decide
over
our bodies.
WE ARE
to decide
over
our time.
WE ARE
to decide
over
our energy.
WE ARE
to decide
over
our mind.
WE ARE
to decide.
how have
we come
to BUILD
a culture
of
poisoning
ones
own body.
.
ARE THESE
the glaciers
which
have
fallen
from the sky.
five minutes
can change
ones
brain
CHEMISTRY.
.
full videoperformance: https://vimeo.com/ondemand/projectephemeris2023/826463796
all
i HEARD
in
your
voice
was
irritation.
all
i HEARD
in
my head
was
LEAVE.
.
