thinking
is a full
body process.
feeling
is a full
body process.
tears are
re
SERVED
for
solitude.
.
thinking
is a full
body process.
feeling
is a full
body process.
tears are
re
SERVED
for
solitude.
.
unearthed.
SKYdriven.
is one sub
consciously
LOOKING
for
the
EVIDENCE
for
what
EVER belief
ONE
holds about
the
SELF.
.
once one
can
SOURCE
validation
IN
side
one does
not need
to source
it
OUT
side the
bodyself.
.
ALL the unsaid
hangs in the ether
WEIGHING us
down. in a culture
of compassion
hate cannot exist.
wtf are we doing.
where do i get to
BE
the truest version
of me.
.
instead OF
looking for
the familiar
which
never
served you
may
BE look for
what
you did not
get
but
would have
could have
NEEDED.
.
no thing
seems clear
in the
FOG of fear.
TWO cycles
of
the MOON
FOR things
to
play out as
they always
do.
is this good
bye.
.
the UN
ex
pressed
re
MAINS
re
pressed.
WHAT
may
BE
may
leave.
WHAT
we
RESIST
does
persist.
.
is any
ONE real
about
HOW
they deal
with what
they feel.
is any
ONE real.
.
my bones pretend to be sore
from replaying NUMB/ENCORE
WHAT FOR do you want more.
the heart promptly closes its gate
is this. is this. my fucking fate
to re enact an old old STORY
FEELING like the opposite of glory.
e
MOTIONALLY disassociated
as if they had me SEDATED
THIS situation is so outdated
WATCH ME plastic smile through it
the only valid strategy when i misfit.
running far BE fore the pain can hit.
call me mad. call my crazy.
i guess save just isn t sexy.
do i only get TO BE FREE
be
tween the lines of POETRY.
.
what is re
surfacing
FOR trans
formation
+ rel
EASING
into
the ether.
some
things
won t
make
sense
no matter
how they
re turned.
.
DOES
controlling
connection
come
controlling
connection
come
controlling
connection
come
WITH
the loss of
it.
.
diving into the
SUB
conscious SEA
WITH
in me
i com
prehend what
they
MEANT when
they
sang
OCEAN child
seashell eyes.
.
the same pattern on
repeat
but lets just ignore it.
+
isn t it
easier
to blame it all on her
the HYSTERICAL girl
than
to examine your own
e
motional mechanisms.
.
when
you know
you know
do you
THOUGH.
CLARITY
where
are you.
+
are you
are you
for real.
.
acceptance
of what is
comes with
the LOSS
of
what is not.
GROWTH
in
cludes the
letting GO
of out
dated
versions of
SELF.
how do you
move
through the
loss of
ILLUSION.
.